Nice and dangerous?

I’m not sure if it should be something like “Do not disturb” or “Approach with caution”. Both were appropriate for a long time. Add, only open in times of war, dangerous content, not appropriate for children, contains content and images that may be disturbing. For a long time, I just radiated violence like a warning tag. DON’T POKE THE BEAR! I was a little hurt and sometimes shocked by how people reacted to me.

I’m a nice guy. Really, in spite of everything I say about myself, I love little kids and old people and never seem to have a hard time approaching them. I’d pull up to the playground and flag down a water ice truck and treat everyone and just drive away. I’d get complaints because I blocked and intersection and helped an old lady with her groceries cross the street. I tried not to hurt people and do good where I could.

I guess my tag line needs to be both, nice and dangerous. I will give you the shirt off of my back if you need it, just don’t try to take it.

Daily writing prompt
If humans had taglines, what would yours be?

Tough one

If you count who occupies the same space as me, it is a toss-up between my significant other and my sister. I don’t speak to my sister that much, but when I do, we have great conversations. My Sig-other, we spend a lot of time together doing things more than having deep conversations. Home repair, golf, motorcycle rides, and cooking are all regular stuff but we don’t interact very much. Sleeping doesn’t count either.

If I’m honest, I have more conversation over three to five hours of golf with strangers than people I live with. Most of it isn’t very personal, just talk and the occasional joke. Really, if you can’t laugh about golf, you shouldn’t play.

I wonder if the voices in my head count. They always have such interesting ideas and comments. I’ve learned not to repeat them in public because that would be insane. Right? Not you. I was talking to them. Ok, I was writing to them, nitpicker. Yes. You’re crazy, not me. Now just shut up. I forgot what I was writing about.

Daily writing prompt
Who do you spend the most time with?

Our First names.

Our first names came from our occupation or worth to the family and community. Hunter, Fisher, Forester, Farmer, Wheelwright, regardless of the language, it usually comes out to the same thing. I hope that if I were named the same way today, it would be Guardian or Teacher. I’ve tried to be both for so long.

I also wonder what names we would pass out to today’s generation. The temptation is to say Useless and Pampered would be the most common names. Though I expect that if they were to name themselves, it would be Teabag69, D3athF@rt or whatever tag they use on Fortnight. The pathetic specimens that I see walking the streets don’t rate much more. They won’t put in the effort to learn productive skills. They are afraid to sweat and complain because no one recognizes their brilliance.

There is another part of that generation, built on another fifty years of progress and learning. They have taken advantage of the tools that we struggled with to leap past us. Building on the knowledge of those who came before, just like us. We were lifted by visionaries, who were lifted by giants, who built upon the work of great thinkers. Our children, that we find lacking in so many skills we take for granted, are launching from heights we can’t imagine. They may have to go back to the old names, Atlas, Prometheus, Hippocrates, Athena.

I have tried to imagine the future my grandchildren will inherit. I fear that the barbarians will come through the gates and destroy what could be with sticks and rocks, not resisted by the lances of fire and destruction that we are capable of. Not from fear but from mercy and restraint. Where we learned that a bully is best served by a punch in the face, they use peer pressure and forbearance. It doesn’t work on bullies. Our world covers all of recorded history from, early civilization to the most advanced ages, with a mixture of leadership guiding it, equally as diverse. They need other names to join them Horatio on the bridge, Hercules, Paris and Achilles, Bellerophon or Odysseus. Warriors and guardians.

Civilization needs its barbarians. The uncivilized man, willing to risk life for others to live and take life in that cause. The scars on the men and women who stand between the innocent and violence bear are deep. They won’t fit into the new world. The new world won’t survive without them. I hope they are smart enough to figure out the answer.

It’s not necessary.

I get called a lot of things that aren’t my given name. Is it really necessary to pick something else and try to fit into it. I have a friend whose given name is Mylord, didn’t make him rich. A friend from the Army says he knows where he is by what people call him, variations on a theme as it were.

Me, I use my name to know if I’m talking to friends or enemies. Sometimes it gets confusing. People at work called me crazy a lot, I earned that one. I shouldn’t repeat what my exes call me. It’s not nice and this might be read by children. I was known as Heathen in a couple of groups. Most of my life I was addressed by my surname or Sergeant. The truth is that I’ve earned all of them, one way or another.

I guess the strangest was when my father called me sonofabitch or bastard. Did Mom know? Was he trying to tell me I wasn’t part of the family? Childhood was a little confusing.

I’ll just stick with what I was given and make the best of it.

Daily writing prompt
If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

The fear of fear, maybe.

It sounds arrogant, no surprise coming from me, I’m not afraid of anything that I can point to. There is even a lack of understanding of fear itself. Personally, I believe it comes from coming close to death to many times to care anymore. I know I can die. It will happen one day, probably proceeded by me saying something stupid like, “Hey, guys! Watch this!”

Lack of fear has earned me some strangely fitting nicknames, Crazy Bob, Stupid, Terminator (I don’t get that one) and some less flattering monikers. It has caused some friction where I did something that scared those around me for no reason I could understand. Disbelief in something that I can do or have done, until I prove it and scare someone else.

You see, I love the feeling of flying, falling, swimming deeper, exploring, driving fast, living on the edge or stepping off the edge, even. I’m not afraid, but I feel alive, thrilled by the experience. If you have never done it, find something that makes your heart race, embrace it, make it as safe as you can or take off all the protection and leap! Just once embrace what you were afraid of, don’t try to overcome it, accept it and everything it represents.

Daily writing prompt
What fears have you overcome and how?

The road to Nowhere.

The answer to both questions today is the same. When I feel like I’m not getting anywhere or my brain is stuck in a rut, it’s time to unplug. I’m on the road to nowhere and scrolling for directions. I distract my brain with fluff, so I feel like I’m doing something, anything.

When I need to reconnect, I get on a road to nowhere. I go road hunting, trying to get lost without a map. Wake up in the morning, crank up the bike and ride all day. Usually, I’ll stop at some side of the road restaurant for a late lunch. My mind is clear and somewhere along the way, I’ve found my way. I hope that everyone has their own road to nowhere, even if we don’t get there the same way.

Daily writing prompt
How do you know when it’s time to unplug? What do you do to make it happen?

One part different opinion. One part not caring about feelings, a dash of sarcasm. Stir vigorously.

I guess it comes from a lack of tolerance for poor arguments or lack of understanding of the subject, but I like to stir the pot. Especially when people parrot talking points without doing the research to support their arguments. I’ve been accused of everything except having a right to my opinion to losing my humanity. The names I’m addressed by are attempts to insult or intimidate me. It’s simpler than that, I don’t care.

Lately it is about the upcoming elections and associated topics. Abortion, gun control, freedom of speech or religion, tolerance and accepting disturbed people claiming absolute authority to change language to suit themselves. I don’t have to respect you or your beliefs. You don’t have to respect mine. Just don’t expect me to bow to your alter of wokeness or victimhood.

My sole outlet is to post my opinion and attack weak arguments with logic and facts. I hope that somewhere, I’ve at least made people think about what they believe and why. I don’t even expect to change minds, just make people think.

Besides, it’s fun.

Daily writing prompt
Describe one simple thing you do that brings joy to your life.

The perfection of self.

If you follow my religion, you are a purist, outdoors in nature. Though some have taken to worship inside, using modern technology and simulators. As a group, we endure the novice, who wander the fairways in search of their lost ball. Those who only practice on special days or holidays. They lack dedication or are overcome by the mundane world of family or work.

It is simple. Break it down to the basics of The Drive, the Approach and the Putt. Everyone has a different ritual for each step, but it comes down to focus and repetitive acts. What it teaches each of us is patience, moderation of force and inner peace. Each step bringing you closer to your goal. If you miss your target, you have to take you next swing from where you are, not where you want to be. The final shot is precise, distance, speed, looking for every variation before you. Good life lessons there.

When I started playing golf, I tried to hit the ball as hard as I could and hoped. As I grew to understand the goal of the game, I became more concerned about the outcome over the flash of an impressive shot. Repeating the mantra, “Slow down. Shorten up the back swing”, I came closer to my goal. Not perfection, just better than I was last time.

I am religious about golf since I retired, in a secular sense, trying to find that quiet place in myself. It’s something that I’ve done throughout my life when I was trying to find my feet. I was working my way through PTSD or divorce, turbulent changes worked out while I was concentrating on a sport.

Daily writing prompt
Do you practice religion?

The world at your fingertips.

Yep. I’m old enough to remember life before the internet. The glory days of RadioShack and Block Buster Video. The evolution of music from albums to 8 track and cassette, finally compact disk. Having to do research when the library was open or a library card so you could take a book home. Who remembers AOL launching its free software and having to dial in. What baud rate were you using? Printed books! Finding a really good book and passing it to a friend. Being terrified by King and “The Shining” just through the words of the author.

We were definitely more connected to people around us. Being able to connect with anyone at any time. We were also more considerate of people’s schedules. You didn’t call at dinner or after 8 or 9 PM. Playing games meant going outside or gathering around a table, using cards and markers instead of bits and bright lights and game consoles. We didn’t have a computer in our pocket that could connect us to the world. Your cell phone is more powerful that the computers used to launch the lunar missions and design the space shuttle.

I can take any book or music I want with me as I travel across the country. Any country. Constant stimulation instead of waiting patiently for my number to be called at the DMV. Or forbid, making small talk with a stranger.

Finally, where did cat’s sleep before keyboards?

Daily writing prompt
Do you remember life before the internet?

What’s the point?

Have you ever considered what having it all? All of your wants and desires filled. Never having to work or strive. No reason to get out of bed or even be a functional human being. How sad.

Part of what sets us apart is what we work for or achieve. Have you ever heard someone congratulated for never having worked or achieving anything? I would wager that you have heard of someone who worked their whole life only to die after a few months of retirement. They didn’t have a reason to get out of bed.

The most common answer to this prompt is probably, “If I had it all, I would do X”. Or something to that effect. Having it all would be a death sentence. I’ll pass.

Daily writing prompt
What does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable?